This is slightly long over due but I guess the timing couldn’t be more perfect.
A few months ago I received an email that left me feeling overjoyed but equally paralyzed with nerves, the subject of the email read ‘ UJFM Interview Request’. It felt so surreal and in the moment of it all I was so focused on not messing up that I didn’t allow myself to stop and soak in what an honor and dream it was. I think it’s always such a humbling and heart warming feeling when people recognize what you’re doing in a time where you felt like no one was paying attention. Obviously I accepted the request to join the hosts on their Monday segment that focused on the Entrepreneur Of The Week. Having being told that that’s the role I am now being recognized in tickled me a bit ,mainly because I realized that the world is now starting to acknowledge what bloggers do as a profession and secondly because for most of my life I never thought I would outwardly be identified as one but I took it and tried to do the segment and those I look up to justice.
One thing many might or might not know about me is how private and guarded I am about sharing my life and generally just making myself vulnerable to strangers, the irony right? I mean I own a blog that somewhat encourages me to do just exactly that, but for me the blog has always been an escape and mood-board for a life I wanted to live. I was informed about the type of questions I would get asked but they didn’t want to give too much away because they still wanted it to feel natural on air as possible.
I remember days before, infact from the moment I received the email, being paralyzed by anxiety. I am naturally a shy person and the thought of having to speak to Lord knows how many thousands of listeners was just as terrifying for me as speaking directly to a room filled with them. Come the big day I tried to mask my nerves with humor which carried me throughout the radio interview. Once we were live on air , something amazing happened, I felt calm, all the nerves and fear I felt melted away . I think that’s when it really sank in for me how much I love what I do and how passionate I am about it. My fear of messing up disappeared the moment I realized just how much I love what I’m sharing and looking back on it that moment changed how I’ve approached my blog and the type of content I’ve been open to share and explore this year and the responses to it have overwhelmed me with joy.
Just a few days ago I celebrated a milestone of having over 10 000 viewers on my blog since its launched and that wouldn’t have been possible if I didn’t take that leap out of my fear of putting myself out there with that interview.
I have so many people to thank but mostly to you guys for softening my fall and continuously coming back to this space
it means the world to me!